Boss

I've worked at a couple places before, I've had a few jobs. I've had a few bosses. Bosses are weird. Bosses only care about how you work and perform, they don't care about your personal life. They really only want to use you, and not always in a bad way. In the way you want to get used to I guess. It's an give and take relationship. They want to pay you as much as they need to, no boss really wants to give you more pay than you've earned. At least not without ulterior and mostly company specific motives. A bonus to make sure you like the place and keep working there. Nothing particularly involved with who you are. On top of that they don't want you to get hurt on the job so they don't have to pay you, yes because they care but other reasons too. They don't care if you like to bike and most certainly don't care if you bike more. I mean that's kinda what it means to be a focused boss.

It helps me rest to know that God wants to bless us. He wants to give me gifts cause He loves me. Not cause he has to, but because he actually wants to. His only real motive is love. He doesn't want me to hurt because he's looking out for what's actually best for me and gives me strength and tons of support when the pain is helpful. I guess God doesn't only care about "ministry" I mean he definitely cares about whether or not people come to know Him in spiritual maturity. I mean after all that's truly what has any worth. Everything else sorta is dull compared to him. But he did create me to live in this world enjoying the things that it has in it. Like orange juice and guitar and intimacy. Like snowfall and cooking and stories. Like games and kindness and sleep. Like all the good things and blessings he's given us is still part of his will. He wants good stuff for us. The physical and spiritual stuff he has created. He wants us to love "ministry" but he can still want us to like life as well. He cares about everything, He cares about our entire life. He's not like a corporate boss, he cares if I bike more.