Heartbroken

I'm really getting tired of the whole controlling "silent stage" thing. It's beginning to make me wanna quit playing music with churches as a whole. Honestly I really wanna play music with my church. I think that creativity and music should first stem from the church. The church needs to be leading the world with creative freedom. God is the creator and in Him there is freedom. So why is it that so many sound tech's always try to tell me that having guitar and bass amps is detrimental to the "worship" sound stuff. Here are my list of cathartic points.

Point 1. My bass/guitar isn't the sole provider of my music. It's the amp, the pedals, the dynamics there are a hundred things involved. Telling me that I can't use my amp or my pedals is like telling a painter they can 't use brushes, or the color blue. You can't restrict the art, if there is no creative freedom, it's not art. So then what are we creating.
http://www.ted.com/index.php/talks/evelyn_glennie_shows_how_to_listen.html


Point 2. People keep telling me they want my amp very very quiet and they will mic it and decide how loud it is in the mix. They tell me this is how it sounds better. Question, what is better a Rolex or a fake Rolex? Fresh vegetables or old vegetables? The amp has the true source of the sound, the original, whenever you mic it, it has to then get translated through a whole other set of speakers and wires. When is a copy ever better than the original? The amps should always face the listeners, they are getting the original sound in its natural state. How can it be better to hear it translated through a whole other set of speakers and amps. This is always an interpretation of how it's supposed to sound. The least desired sound is sound that travels out of the monitors bounces off the stage wall and is then received by the listeners. This sound gets distorted and altered due to what it's bouncing off of. If the musician needs to hear himself, or other musicians through this device, it will inherently create poorer music quality. Why then do sound techs want complete control over things?

point 3. Why are drumsets bansihed in church halls? If not banished, sent to reside in a dungeon or dunk tank? How is that going to preserve the art better? When we create this art, we need to be connected with one another, this comes partly from physically being near one another feeling the energy of one another and from hearing the small indistinguishable dynamics that feeds so much of the whole "banding together" aspect of being a band. These dyanmics and spiderwebs of connection between the musicians is so much of the beauty of playing music with others, it cannot be sacrificed. Dynamics comes from your developed palatte of note creation. I want to play louder sometimes than others. It should never be all the same volume. Why do churches have a poor relationship with thier drums?
http://www.ted.com/index.php/talks/benjamin_zander_on_music_and_passion.html

point 4. The musicians are the sound creators, together and corporately. The sound reinforcement system is simply that. It reinforces where the musicians don't have enough volume to. It's not a recreation of the sound. It's not the sound tech's lego set, where they can create whatever they want. Instead it's thier resonsibility to create the sound the musicians want to achieve as best as they can. They sound technician's art is to give the volume that the musicians cannot achieve. It's frustrating when I want this part of the song to be louder but then the tech drops my volume. Or I want this part of the song to have more treble but then they cut my trebles. The art of the sound tech is simple, to reinforce the musicians as accurately as possible. It drives me nuts when they "ride the slider". Why have we confused the roles of sound engineers?

point 5. I heard the other day that my bass amp cancels out with certain frequencies of the kick drum or something. The church just dropped thousands of dollars on a sound system that doesn't work with drumsets and bass guitars? really? What if it dropped certain frequencies cause I didn't play them as loud? Even still, phasing seems to be a silly problem. I've never really encountered it all that much. It seems to usually be just a fluke that can be solved by moving the amp a little.

point 6. Sound tech tells me on a weekly basis, that my amp is making the bass too loud in one part of the room but not the other. First I've never seen someone running around during the music sitting in several parts of the room testing how it sounds in all the locations. Secondly I know it does, It's called stereo and people pay alot of money for that. What's better, a sandwich with different flavors all mixing together or putting a sandwich in a blender and drinking it? It's supposed to sound like the bass is coming from the left side.

point 7. Why is it that the conversation is all about sound tech as far the words being used, but so much more about control with the emotions being conveyed. Please stop treating me like a 6 year old child. I might not always know what I'm talking about but I still have feelings.

Sorry it was a little rough today. I'm not pointing the finger at anyone, or any church. It's been like this everywhere.