dislocation = feeling very human.

so on saturday I dislocated my knee. I attribute this to my lack of physical prowess and overweightness. But overall I was taking a very high step onto a piece of heavy machinery. Even as I was taking the step, I was thinking.... is this gonna work? But it was a high step with my right leg and at a wierd angle and it didn't feel natural at all. I expected to swing into the move I guess... (the ground was uneven) So I'm taking this high step and my knee just gives out and my two legs turn from a l l shape to a K shape, not cool. I fall to the ground completely freaked out. I didn't even know that could happen, much less did it feel like it was gonna happen. In the freaky position I fell in, I quickly decided that my legs weren't gonna stay in that position. So I took my knee cap from the side of my leg and dragged it 6in over to where it was supposed to be. I continued to writhe in pain for like 5 more minutes and shook it off and got in the truck to continue my work for the day. But it then occured to me my knee is probably not ok. So I went inside to rest it. As I looked on the internet for the correct procedure it said to go to the ER. So very very reluctanly I did as the walk in center would not take me. All in all I got a pair of crutches an ice pack and a pat on the back. So here I am lying on the couch rotting my brain with television and pondering the frailty of life. We are merely flesh and bones. And weak flesh at that. How simple and easy it is for us to meet our demise. I am not invulnerable nor strong.